Fear of the "M" word

I feel like there is a great deal of pressure in this society on young adults to get married. Don't get me wrong, marriage is a wonderful thing. To find your best friend and someone who loves you and you can love in return is wonderful. So why put on the pressure to finding that special someone. If things are rushed, then you miss out on the joys of getting to know one another, seeing how each other react in different situations, and making memories to last a lifetime.

I see some of my friends that want to get married and start that part of their life but they just can't find that certain someone. Then they start to doubt themselves.

Am I pretty enough? 

Do they not like my personality? 

No one should ever think these thoughts! You were made the way you were for a reason. Don't try to change yourself for others. You may not get along with everyone. Some people may not like you for you, so move on. There is something greater waiting for you. You need someone who sees who you really are; looks at your personality and can't get enough of it.

I know so many girls who would be wonderful mothers and wives but Prince Charming has not yet mounted his white stallion and swept them off their feet. But he will. Life is so excited. It's short lived, so enjoy it! Don't stress over marriage. Every minute you stress, is a minute you can't replace with happiness.

All of the young ladies I know are wonderful! Each have different strengths and weaknesses. No one is perfect. I am far from it and I know this. I'm trying to better myself every day.

One of my weaknesses is marriage. It is one of my greatest fears. Really, it is. I avoid it like the plague sometimes because I am so afraid of it. I do not feel prepared to take that step in my life.

If marriage is even mentioned, I run. It's part of my weakness. I do feel those pressures of marriage. I'm about to be 21 and I feel like an old maid. But I'M NOT! 21 is so young!! Peer pressure is something that I have Never fallen into. However, the pressure of marriage feels like a burden to me...

"So who are you dating now days?? Things getting serious?.."

Can anyone say: Slap of marriage right to the face!

Marriage is wonderful but I have seen things in my life that I would never want to experience. Couples that were once so happy, now struggle or get divorced. What happened to that happiness? In order for me to be able to handle this fear, I need someone that feels like the adventure begins when we meet and date. Not once I have the title of girlfriend or there is a ring on my finger . Otherwise, I will run. And I will run fast. I'm not kidding around when I say this is a FEAR.

My fear is very ironic. I personally don't feel ready for marriage, but I love weddings!! I love to see how happy the bride and groom are. Not to mention, I love all the flowers. There is happiness in the air. You can almost taste it. One day I'll get there. Just not today. 

I feel like Jennifer Lopez in the Wedding Planner. I love weddings but I fear putting myself at the altar.